It was different then

A lifetime ago

She used to smile 

And laugh

Not holding 

The weight of the world

Up 

By her shoulders

Not standing on the 

Outside

Looking in

Who is that girl in the pictures?

Without a care

She didn't know what tomorrow 

Would bring

And trusted that 

The sun would always rise

And good would always prevail

But 10 years gone 

And life held other plans

She's realized that 

Even though life 

Held potential

It can all disappear in a moment

One minute in time 

Can forever 

Change 

The course of your future

And now 

This has become

Her reality

Outside the wind blows strong

The rain has turned to snow

Your flannel shirt hangs on the bedroom door

Your smell lingering 

Long after you've graced this world

What proof do I have 

That you existed? 

That you physically walked this earth?

How long do memories last? 

And what exactly are they made of?

My heart breaks with each minute that passes

My soul grieves

In despair

And my body aches to touch you

What I would give 

To hold the secrets 

That barricade the living

And the dead

To transcend the barrier

That separates this world

From the one beyond

For now

I leave your shirt

To prove

You did not exist 

Only in my mind

In the blink of an eye
Fate can turn to Destiny
Leaving a trail of memories
To be held
Like grains of sand 
Slipping through your fingers
If whispers could carry
Your voice to my heart
Unbroken, reckless
Wild, I'd fly
But chained I stand
Holding only the last remnants
Of what was once 
Ours